Being too nice and kind is solely an internal itch. I don't mean that for specific people in my life but to those who aren't close to me. I have been always kind and nice almost with everyone and everywhere. I have been always trying my best to interact with people less but in the same time making relation with them. Thankfully, I'm known to be the cheerful and crazy person, people told me that I have a unique smile and attitude. Yes I don't interact with people that much, but when they need me I welcome them with my both hands like I'm the closest person to them. I help as much as I can and I try my best not to bring anyone back, because I would feel guilty if I didn't help a person who asked me for a help. It's something more like inborn habit; I just can't help it myself helping others and be gracious as possible. I'm not the type of a person who would do something to get a 'thank you' on return, but I do it as ethically as religiously as I have been taught. My concern is seeing people happy and in peace; intrinsically that Allah would accept my work as good deeds and grant me his compassion, either on this life or at the Judgment Day.

Yet, all overall, you would find people who bears hatred for you, jealousy and malevolence. I don't bother myself with that because I know I can't satisfy every single individual I ever knew. But the worst part, being nice people who aren't close to you but they hates you or dislikes you. I don't interact with them that much and if I do, I'm with all innocence baring my kindness and being honest to everyone. What earnestly irritates me that I have been nice and kind to a person and the other day s/he completely ignores what I did for him/her. Some people would even backstabbing you and accuse you with something that you'd never ever done. This is unequivocally called hypocrisy and depreciation and such people are scum of the earth.

Lately, I've been trying to be a better Muslim referring to the fact that death is certain and we just don't know when we are going to die. I was thinking about those people who bear some enmity for me and I was like "Ok, let me be better than these people and go apologize to them about anything to just satisfy their pleasure so they could stop stalking and shitting about me". As much as I always wanted not to be hated but actually loved and respected from everyone, I thought of an idea that –for the long terms- purifies me from having enemies which is apologizing.

Apologizing and saying sorry to people, however, is definitely something righteous and ain't lame. At the beginning, I was very hesitant to go and talk to those people and say sorry, but I got my guts and did it. I went to apologize to many people that I thought that I wasn't that much nice with them or that I ever had a problem with them previously. The majority of them were very understanding and actually they were shocked why I came and apologized to them. For some reasons I thought I would sound as awkward as a loser just going to people and apologize to them after being all nice and kind before. Then, I believed that I did the right thing and I don't think I would regret what I did one day. I was better than them, yes I felt relived after apologizing knowing that I have no more enmity from people that I kept thinking they do have. The word "sorry" is verily like a magic word, it changed my relation with many people to a better one.

That wasn't enough for me, I have also an online identity and I do have relations with other online identities in different communities. What the heck, I went to apologize to many of them (either by E-mail or Forum PMs) and I was also happy that most of them were an understanding person. There were three identities that were exceptional. One has reluctantly replied me with very harsh and offensive words that is unexpected from a person like him that has good online reputation. I couldn't believe that he holds that much hatred for me and my artwork in this way but at the end I would say (if you gonna read this) Allah Ysam7ak!!

The other two identities completely ignored my PMs which were succinct why I came and apologized to them. These two are two best friends in real life and to date I don't know why on earth they didn't reply me, whatsoever. As I said, apologizing to people isn't something shameful you do or it's for losers. Frankly, I don't know why they ignored it as a month or so have passed already, although they practice their online activities daily. Sub7an Allah, what do they think? Is it because someone came and apologized to them that they now want to ignorantly being arrogant? I was thinking why they're doing this. I think they just want to make me feel lower than them and be like a loser. Well, lol obviously I'm not a loser and what I did was perfectly the right thing. It's not shame to apologize and gaining reation with people but the real shame is that you don't respond to the people who're trying to be nice with you. It's shame when someone sends you an email or a PM and you don't reply. Myself, I would feel as ignorant as clumsy person if I ignore any person, no matter what. If I'm in their case, the least thing I can do is replying back with anything but not to be rude and arrogant ignoring messages. It's either these two identities felt that I was better than them coming to apologize first. Or else, they don't have morals and respect and their thinking is merely like animals, although animals would feel sorry for them because their reaction is a pathetic excuse to the human being!

Last but not least, to you readers, if you think that I ever misbehaved, mistreated or wasn't that nice to you, I'M VERY SORRY!

I was bored and thought of practicing Adobe Illustrator CS2 more, so I decided to vector cloud's pendant which you all know ;)

Time spent: approx. 2.5 hrs



and here's little gradient effect:




Comments and feedbacks are highly appreciated. Although, I will work on a wallpaper using this design, am relaying on you comments ;)

Just picked one of the great templates at Blogger Templates and made little changes on it.

What do you think of it? A.W.E.S.O.M.E right? :D

I wrote a tutorial on how to make your own avatar using Adobe Photoshop. The tutorial is very detailed and merely for beginners and photoshop newbie. I hope you will benefit from it and if there is anything you'd like to ask, then please just do.

CLICK HERE

Tragically, a 17 years old kid has been premeditatedly killed in Nizwa last week. This, for one, has frightened every person in Nizwa, cos in Nizwa you barely hear such incident. I myself got really shocked especially knowing that the murderer is an educated person. Graduated from Sultan School, Master in UK and Ph.D in USA and was working in PDO. I will tell you the scenario that's spread all over Nizwa.

The kid (K) used to date the murderer's housemaid at his house. The murderer noticed the kid housebreaking into his house but he couldn't catch him in the first time. The murderer knew that the kid was dating his housemaid, so he made up a conspiracy with the housemaid and his younger brother to entrap the kid. The night of murder, the kid came over as the maid told him the place is vacant and once he's in, the two (the murderer and his younger brother) ambushed and caught him up. At first the kid tried to compromise but the murderer mercilessly shoot him 3 times in the chest while he was fleeing. The kid turned out to be the murderer's neighbor youngest brother but this is not the end yet. The murderer then called his neighbor telling him that he shoots his brother and asked him to take him out from his house. The victim's poor older brother came and asked the murderer to help him to take him to the hospital but he rudely refused and asked him if he didn't take his brother quickly he'll shoot him too (how blunt?). The kid sorrowfully died after few hours and offenders got caught immediately and confessed about everything.

Now, for god's sake, the kid got killed just because of a housemaid? If you were in the murderer's position what will you do? Do you think he did the right thing? Keeping in mind that the person is not ignoramus but almost got the best education. Who's fault that the kid was dating the housemaid? Don't you think that the murderer has so many alternatives, instead of just kill a 17 years old kid because he was just dating his housemaid?

I personally think that the murderer did perfectly a big mistake. There were so many alternatives he could have had done. One that he can simply call the police and tell them everything without killing and such which is more logic and legitimate. Or firethe housemaid, tell his neighbor that his 17 years old brother is dating his housemaid and should do something about it. I mean there are many other alternatives and the worst (if that's the case) could be giving him piece of his mind to learn the good lesson.

This drastic murder is really frightening since Oman, in Nizwa especially, we don't hear such murders (do we?) I bare my condolence to this kid family and I hope offenders will get the best punishments. I also hope that other families should learn something from this murder, either for their kids and/or carefully from their housemaids.

I'm still shocked hearing this murder happened in Nizwa :(